Tuesday, 30 August 2011

Morning words


Soothed by the beauty of the morning sun
 
Warming and lighting the fragrant blooms
 
Stirred by the music of voice and guitar in gentle blend
 
By the sense of your presence so far away
 
With my words I kiss your lips
 
Fondle your ear
 
Feel your darkened hair
 
Press myself against your breasts
 
Letting them trail down your body
 
Speaking to you
 
Caressing you
 
Soothing you
 
Stirring you
 
Gently breathing against you…
 
Words more soft and beautiful
 
As they feel their way down.
 
 
Take them into the shower with you
 
Hold them in your hands
 
Let the fragrant oil enhance them
 
Spread them with your hands and fingers
 
Let them fondle you where your body stirs
 
Push them with your fingers into secret places
 
Let them nestle there
 
Warm and protected in your mother's body
 
Let them affirm you as a woman
 
A woman of beauty and poise
 
Of grace and warmth
 
Of deep mind and feeling.
 
Stand naked under the warm flow
 
As my words trickle down your thighs
 
Massaging your feet
 
Slipping between your toes.
 
 
Step carefully as you emerge
 
Keep my words about you
 
As you dress for your day
 
Protecting them with your garments
 
Letting them linger
 
About your person
 
 
Beautiful, special friend.

Dream of delight


Sometimes
When rough ways
Shake the battered frame
When racked brain aches
Screwed tight with others' anger
I dream of the sun
Hidden but there
Flowing and warming
Her beautiful body
Barely clad
As though she would share
Her soft pleasures
Head bowed, coyly modest
She shows but covers
Offering a glimpse
Though not quite ready
To slip into my space
And I feel that sweet longing
The child's want of the breast
The warm enfolding
The gently stroking caress
Kisses of comfort
Words that lift the spirit
Stirring and arousing
Creating new strength
Exciting and energising
Intensifying stretched nerves
Until all that is pent up
Bursts forth
Released and relieving
Emptied and spent
 
Lost in a dream of delight

Tuesday, 16 August 2011

Fragile Comfort

My head aches and my mind feels crushed
Unsettled by a burden of care.
Listless, I look into the pale blue sky
Where white clouds drift along, careless enough,
And the crinkly green leaves of the pittosporum
Growing behind the hedge
Tremble in the light movement of air.

I walk out into the crisp morning
Breathing the sea breeze.
My eyes scan the clipped beach hedge
Its green garment turning to russet brown.
Beneath, the Autumn crocuses thrust up
Light dancing heads, pleased to show
What little they have
Under the damp hedge in the cool air.

And then there is the pink geranium
Its five-fold petals like a thin nightdress
Or somehow naked, light veined, soft,
Its stamens roused and wanting
The kiss of honey-gathering bee,
Quivering as the breath of morning
Stirs its fragile form.

And then I share my words with you,
Anxious that maybe I give too little
That I am weak when you need strength.

And as you take me in your arms
Holding me tight
My tears flow onto your warm neck
Spilling my grief
Eased by your knowing heart
Comforted by your still, assuring silence
By the feel of your breast against my chest
By the touch of your thighs as we hold close
By the soft feel of your hair on my cheek.

Tuesday, 9 August 2011

Untouchable lover



There was comfort in her hands.
Ahead lay crisis and worry
The dragging pall of business
Uncertainty and fear.
Here, backed into her nakedness,
Fingers that travelled over breast and belly
Soothed, like moisture on dry lips.

He felt his swollen penis,
Not hard and bursting
As in carefree days;
Tumescent only, as his mind strayed,
Picturing her whose strangled love
Played on his heart,
Whose soft ripe body
Smothered with passion her man's physique,
Hot in her wild cavortings.

He moved and her hand brushed, then touched,
Fondling to pleasure him,
Then trailing over thigh and breast,
Over bottom and back,
As he arched back onto slim skin leg,
Pressing his flower on silky flesh,
Thrusting within her cupped palm.

His mind stirred like leaves on the ground
Swirling images of bucking bodies,
Placated by her nurse's fingers
Tending his anxious arousal -
A pole-dancer that cannot be touched...

And he longed for the soft breasts and lips
Of his unreachable lover.

Saturday, 5 June 2010


Your trembling petals

Offer themselves, smiling

Soft moist velvet lips

Opening and inviting eyes of love.

Your stamens reach out from deep within,

Seed showing on heads that beckon,

Somehow wanting

A touch of tenderness,

Quivering in anticipation

Of coming warmth, of new life,

You display your desire

You offer yourself

My mouth closes to taste

My tongue probes,

Reaching the nectar

Friday, 7 August 2009

Parting of the ways

I was awake at 5 a.m. and clambered from under the mosquito net into the bathroom. A cold shower was the only choice - invigorating. I shaved and dressed.

I had packed my holdall the night before, so all I now had to do was leave the guest house - except that the gate of the compound was padlocked. So I had to wake the night-watchman, which cost me 1000 shillings, since I didn't have any change - and of course, he had none.

Bahati was there, my faithful friend. She came over and took my shoulder bag and slung it over her own shoulder as she pushed her bike onto the road. Together we walked in the darkness, the wheels of my holdall rumbling against the road surface.

There were no street lights. Some of the shops and hovels set back from the road on either side had small strip lights. One or two bright stars sparkled through the light clouds overhead. We walked on in the dark. There wasn't much either of us could say, as neither spoke much of the other's language. But I knew what she was thinking. This was the parting of the ways. We might never see each other again.

We crossed the road and rounded a corner. The bus station came in sight. Well, that is to say, a couple of buses were parked on a bit of waste land, their lights on and their engines running. One of them was my bus to Dar es Salaam, due to leave at 6:30 a.m. for the 9.5 hour drive.

She made sure my big bag was in the hold and then got me to my seat by the window, about 4 rows from the front. Then we clambered down from the bus again and sat on a wooden bench in the shadows. I put my arm round her. I could promise nothing. I could only thank her for her friendship and wish her well. I had already given her some money to help her with her 3 year old son. Her job as a hospital ward assistant wouldn't pay much and she had no husband of any sort. I knew what she would like; but I knew that it was impossible.

The bus revved up and people who had been waiting clambered aboard up the steep steps. She climbed on with me again and made sure I was in my seat. Then she lent over for me to kiss her. I did so, enjoying her fragrance and warmth for a moment, the touch of her smooth skin on my lips. Then she turned and walked away, down the steps of the bus and across to her bicycle.

When you are near the equator, the darkness quickly comes and then as quickly goes. As she climbed on her bike and cycled away, I realised the sun was coming up. A new day was dawning... a new chapter. The bus revved harder, crashing into gear, and pulled away along the dirt road.

I did not see her again. But as the bus left the town and headed out into the bush, my phone rang. It was Bahati.

'Bye,' she said. And the phone went dead.

Tuesday, 4 August 2009

A place of pleasure

Ifakara, some 100 km along the Kilombero Valley, is a flourishing town, despite the poor condition of the connecting road. Rice is grown in the area and in front of the various mills huge sheets are covered in rice, drying in the sun.

Since my last visit 2 years ago, the main road through the town has been sealed and thankfully, this has reduced the dust. Bicycles are for hire everywhere for next to nothing. The one I used, mind you, had no front brakes, no tread on the tyres and a squealing, rather ineffective back brake. But it got me around. It's quite fun cycling along with lots of other cyclists weaving and swerving over the bumps and ruts in the roads and tracks away from the main road. A visit to the riverside impressed me because of the beautiful lettuces and spinach being grown in the fertile soil which could easily be watered from the brown, quite fast flowing water of the river.

The Nshanga Guest House, where I have stayed in the past, was full. I was disappointed, as the women there had alays been friendly and welcoming, washing clothes for me and providing whatever services I needed. I was disappointed that none of them were in evidence and the men seemed singularly unfriendly. They directed me to the newer but characterless Nshanga 2 Guest House across the road. The men there were also unfriendly but after a long argument, agreed to let me stay there for 10,000/= per night (= about 8 dollars), which is what I would have paid at the other place. For that I had a reasonable room with a big bed, intact mosquito net and a bathroom - basin, cold shower and lavatory. At least the water flowed.

In front of the old Nshanga is a bar area, with plastic tables and chairs under a kind of leafy pergola. Chicken and chips are cooked over a charcoal grill at the side. In the evening I went across to my old haunt and sat down and ordered a Serengeti beer. I did not recognise the two women who were serving drinks, but I started to make friends with one of them - not easy when she didn't seem to have one word of English.

I ordered chicken and chips. 5000/= she said - but no, I only wanted to pay 3000/=. A small one will do I said - 'kidogo". She went back to the man doing the grilling to explain what I wanted. He looked across and recognised me. He rushed to greet me like a long-lost friend, grinning broadly amd pumping my hand.

His English consisted of about ten words but I think he understood more than my new friend Zaida. I told him how sorry I was that the ladies that used to work there had left. The atmosphere was not the same. 'What's happened to Bahiti?' I asked. I didn't understand what he said, but he came back several times in the next hour or so, by which time I had eaten my chicken and chips and drunk another beer. Zaidi sat at my table in the dark night air watching the TV between serving customers. My friend came across to me again, excited. 'Bahiti is coming!' he said. He had her phone number on his mobile phone and had contacted her.

Half an hour later she arrived, looking beautiful and charming, fragrant in some exotic perfume and dressed in a pleasant long brown patterned skirt and neat top. She had glammed herself up especially. She embraced me like a lover. She told me she was now working in the local hospital. Her son was doing well at school. She was clearly happy to find me again. In a few seconds my evening had changed from one of disappointment to one of delight and promise.

That's Africa for you. One minute you feel it's all hopeless and a cloud of lonely despondency can descend on you. The next moment, the warmth of someone who cares can make the days and nights full of pleasure.